Lavender Water

I’m drowning in your sea of tranquility
the hands that reach to save me only
hold for a moment before letting go
and letting god

who doesn’t seem to exist or why would
my lungs fill with the struggle of life and if
I sink to the bottom to push off to break
free what is there to find on the other side

I met this girl and am scared to death to tell
her I like her even though she lives twenty-five
hundred miles away which should be enough
of a barrier to cushion any negative reply but
it seems that light speed has a different theory

her art is as amazing as her conversation in one
hand there is a phone and in the other her card
afraid to move past this point due to a malfunction
that quite possibly put me here a couple of decades
too early

I’m lost in the moment where the most beautiful
girl in the milky way gave me a lavender water hug
that lingered just enough to mean something

I’m drowning in your sea of tranquility and am quite
certain I don’t know what to do

Robert S Katovski Olson 2018