Tiny Door

I’m in love with no one
see no fire in anyone’s eyes
I’m in love with no one
just feel like I’m despised

something happened
when I saw the grim
the sense of abandonment
overwhelmed a spirit

caught in the tangled grip
of fading light where
shadows haunt what
could have been

as fire separates realities
seen in the heat wave mirage
is a tiny door behind which
could open a vast new dimension

there never was any question
dear moonchild you where born
deep in the center of cancer
so much so that your birth moon
matched the zodiac

thus making you pure water
with an ability to step through
the fiery portal guardian
without fear of recourse

beyond the door is a world
flowing in free thought
where not one individual
is judged for their age
sexual identity or back-story

some decades ago there was
a wrong turn made at a crossroad
which as it turns out was the long
way to the tiny door

I’m still in love with no one
But I see fire in everyone’s eyes
I’m in love with a new way of life
where I can be what I choose
I chose love because I love
all of you

Katovski©2016

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I’m Not Voting

the first time I registered to vote
I didn’t want to claim a party
so I was called a communist

sure I knew what communism was
and sure as hell didn’t believe in it
a lot of good people died fighting
wars that had nothing to do with
stopping the spread of communism
and everything to do with greed

I’ve been married to a couple of
different women who grew up
in countries that were part of
the soviet union
after listening to their stories
the media scare tactic linking
communism to socialized
democracy is dead wrong

misinformation is a science
of distraction designed
to cause a reaction
breaking down the population
into combative factions
all against one another
and not the machine who created them

people are falling for this shit
hook line and sinker
swimming all schooled up
because there is safety in numbers
safety in numbers?
until a predator comes along
now its called a massacre

I moved since the last vote
and now have to re register
the form is filled out
its not signed and I still
claim no party

just because I believe that
left wing right wing same bird
is what we have in our system
of government does that still
make me a communist
in anyone’s eyes

people keep saying
get out and vote
help make a change
for your country

then the powers that be
come to all of us
with their candidates
and we are supposed to believe
that this is the best they have to offer

so while being handed a bucket of shit
being told to vote your conscience
is like being told to pick out the best turd
in the bucket

I keep asking this question
and it does demand an answer

what if we all refused to vote?
would there still be a president
elected in November?
and if that did happen what
would you do? Nothing?
or get extremely angry
because you found out
that your vote was worthless?

fuck it, I’m not voting

Katovski2016~

It’s All About Choice

in the media today
word has passed
of a coming race war
KKK and the aryan nation
are said to be mobilizing
and what of the new
black panthers?

Listen people
you are playing right
into the very hand
that wants to divide you
killing each other
will solve nothing

they want you
to fight each other
in a bloody war
among the races and classes
while you are forgetting
that all of you are part
of one race, the Human race

while you watch game of thrones
it happens all around you
house against house
one bloodline against humanity
these people make hitler
look like an amateur

did anyone stop to think
that in going to war
because of color
will set in motion
something that may just be
an unstoppable force

when america falls
the true believer genocide begins
a cleansing of those not affected
by the brainwashing
one by one by another
they will just disappear
and your children
will no longer be yours
you fear communism and socialism
but its coming whether
you like it or not
in a way that would
make even joseph stalin
appear to be weak .

what you don’t realize
is that you took the bait
those leaders that
are pushing you to fight
and to kill will not be
on the front lines with you
they are sheepishly trying
to buy their way into
the elitist class hoping
that by selling you out
they will save their own ass

I refuse to take up sides
unless we can all decide
that humanity is worth saving
unless we can agree that
even though our outward
appearance may differ
we all contain the same
four atoms that bind us
together as one

I beg you to reconsider
thoughts and actions
that create war among
yourselves
it will only lead to
a military action
that leaves millions dead
and america no longer
the land of the free
it’s all about choice

Katovski2016

Standing “O”

(for Grace VanderWaal)

innocent lovely twelve
original special confident
humble miracle possible
don’t know my name
lost trying to get found
in an ocean of people
rare moments in time
Standing ovation
golden glitter rain
excitement twofold amazement
swift prediction
shooting star
supernova orbital moon
don’t play by the rules of the game
daydreaming getting ready to wake up
a huge voice in a tiny package
until that night while the world
turned in chaos she did not exist
in that split second time moved sideways
the world witnessed an extraordinary moment
now I know her name

Katovski©2016

The Foot

Sometimes just trying to survive
looks a lot like one is giving up
but really who’s counting
I’m sorry, but I just spent a year
trying desperately not to die
these medications
meant to keep me alive
stole things from me
in turn they stole part of
me from you
anxiety and depression
induced memory loss
illness upon and after illness
maybe I became someone
different physically                                                                                                   than I was five years ago
but I never gave up on you
I never lost the ability
that caused you to laugh
how dare you
attempt to tactically fat shame me
knowing I can barely walk
to the mailbox and back
while feeding me fast food
it would have been better to just starve
all this and never dreaming
that you could or even would
become a side effect of the medication
even after finding a way to reverse
the pseudo dementia without
additional medication
by simply reverting back to something
I did as a child like going camping
you seemed impressed by the skills
but did you keep your word
did you come visit the site
Fuck no!
I noticed the behavior change
it wasn’t even subtle
oh hey wait I did give up
waiting on social security
because we needed to survive
every second of those twelve
to sixteen hour days began                                                                                         an accelerated decomposition
of my mortality
The phone rang!
my attorney said we can’t give up now
and I agreed
you said “trust me I’m your best friend ”
followed by “we should get a divorce”
such spur of the moment premeditation
doesn’t go unnoticed while trust just
flew out the window without it even being open
mother fucker! my suspicions
are coming true
how fucking convenient is it to make                                                                   such a proclamation using my condition
as a flimsy facade to hide your
alternate agenda.
I know that no one stole you from me
because you just gave yourself away
you have an inability to tell the truth
even when caught in the act
and there is no turning back now
I guess in some weird way                                                                                               I should thank you for setting me free
because my future does not include you
the rest of my days will be spent living
the life that I have and enjoying it
sticks and stones may still break my bones                                                         in sickness and in health
for better or for worse
nothing compares to the deep internal hurt suffered                                 from the foot that kicked me while I was down
Katovski©2016