What point is love
When attraction
Has lost its effect
Should we then
Just live as friends
Along with the dissatisfaction
Knowing all too well
That somewhere along the way
We have last our attraction
The orgasmless pit in my stomach
Speaks the truth
A lover left to visit her mother
And only a friend returned
Many are the friends
Who are not lovers
Yet am I the only one
Honest enough with myself
To admit to what is going on
And the occasional oral copulation
Does not calm the fire within
Of puppets on strings
And roller coasters
That create tidal waves
Of confused emotion
Or is it just delusional expectations
Which doom the hopeful
To Cape Disappointment
Is then happiness
Just so momentary
As to knock down
The walls of longevity
Leaving us holding
The all encompassing
Bag of nothing
While time speeds forward
Repeating nightmares
So often they seem
To be my only reality
And dreams have stopped
Visiting the night
As now this life
Flashes before my eyes
Repeating everything
That I have done wrong
And nothing that I have done right
The torment returns
And my lover is gone
While the world around me
Fades to black
Katovski©2014